Happy Sunday everyone ! I love Sunday's; they are always relaxed and serene. Today's posted however is very special because I will be talking about my first love :)
Years ago a fell head over heels in love with this boy that went to my church. I thought he was so cute and really nice. Months went by and he finally, FINALLY asked me to be his girlfriend. I was so excited since this was my first serious relationship. Now keep in mind I was in the 7th or 8th grade when this happen & he was in either 9th or 10th grade. So I guess you can say I like older guys haha ! But not too old. We loved to go to the movies and hang our since we lived so far away from each other. So I guess you can say I was in a long distance relationship.
However the downside of being so in love with each other we did not know what came with being in love, which I feel many people do not today. Time, patience, emotions, and most importantly your heart is place on a roller coaster of emotions, which I was not expecting at such a young age. Since we were so young we would easily joke around with each other but then I would end up taking it serious (which I still do today, I'm trying to work on it), end up mad at him, and not talk to him. On his part he would usually blow it off as though it was not important and not being considered of my feelings and I eventually developed trust issues. Now-a-days EVERYONE has trust issues for similar reasons or because they are what I called "loose as a goose". Time pasted and our relationship became unstable and eventually we called it quits. For a long time I had a lot of hate for him because of my feelings were hurt, I felt as though I was being taken advantage of and felt unwanted. 4 years went by and we did not talk.
However, one day I had a change of heart. I realized that having this hate in a heart for a person was not healthy. So one day I called him for the first time in 4 years and we both expressed how we felt about the break-up. I can honestly say that I felt like a weigh was being lifted off of my shoulders for finally telling him how I felt all these years. The best part of this was I finally got an apology from him for treating me the way he did. I finally felt like I could move on with my life and I was happy.
Fast forward to a year today I can say we get along perfectly fine. I do not hate him like I did in the past & THIS PAST WEEKEND we hung out for the 1st time in years and we had a blast. It was just like old times and we still have that special spark for each other :)
So thank you for being my first love and putting me through the ring of fire. You have made me a stronger woman and I have learned so much from our experience. It is truly a blessing to see how much we have grown as individuals to become a better person. Thank you once again and I love you <3
Have a great Sunday everyone.
xoxo
Jennifer
